Sunday, April 13, 2008

Life Goes On

So I am not much of a blogger. I guess not too much has been happening recently, or rather not too much that I want to blog about has happened. As hoped, life is really continuing on as normal in many aspects. My room mates have been super cool since I came out to them and I feel like for the most part they are even pretty willing to discuss it with me. It is great to have such awesome friends who are supportive.

On the other hand, I definitely wish that I would have held off telling the ex, at least for a while. In typical female fashion, she acted cool and then went absolutely psycho on me. Hmm, sure makes me want to settle down with a woman for the rest of my life. I guess I never imagined her being so devastated, but who can blame her? I mean what person wouldn't be absolutely destroyed to find out that they could not marry me? :P I am hoping that in a couple weeks things calm down, but if not, I guess it was a great learning experience for me. My favorite part was that she said was mad at God for making me gay. I suppose if she wants to be upset at God for this she can, I'm not going to though. Seriously though, who says that? I could have never imagined that I had such poor judgment of character in selecting my friends.

I have also come out to a couple other friends in the ward this past week. I did not particularly plan on coming out to one friend this week, but when the opportunity presented itself, I felt that he would be a trusted friend. The other is a home teachee that I met my freshman year at BYU. She grew up here in Newport Beach and we have remained good friends since. She was very understanding and having been through many trials in her own life, was very kind and accepting. She knows that we all have our trials in this life to bear, and she let me know that she is my friend no matter what. It is such a relief to me to have friends I can confide in.

Other than that, not too much to report on. I enjoyed General Conference last weekend, though it was very bittersweet for me. Of course they talked about marriage and families a lot, but this time around it really hit me that something I want so bad, may not be a reality in my mortal life. I won't lie, I cried a little bit. But of course Elder Wirthlin didn't let me down. Since about 2001, his talks have almost exclusively been the ones that have meant the most to me. He is not the best orator, but I would encourage everyone to reread his talks in the Ensign. If I could meet one apostle, it would definitely be him. My favorite talk of his ever, was given in the October 2001 conference called One Step after Another. If you have a moment, I highly recommend reading it. That talk has been such an enormous source of strength in my life. I hope it can continue to help me take life one day at a time. I think that is the only way I will make it.

1 comment:

Sean said...

Thank you for sharing that wonderful talk! It was very inspiring and I'm glad that I got to read it once again and refresh my memory about it. I remember hearing that talk and thinking about how amazing it was and now you've returned it to me. Thank you!